you, are, ridiculous.

it's all just like a dream.

not like a fantasy where everything is blissfully pleasant.

and yet not like a nightmare either.
but also not in between.  i just really want to be told that everything is really happening around me.

i'm talking about my life here.  go to hell!  perhaps it all is a dream? everything just seems so surreal. i can't believe how quickly time is going by. it seems unreal to believe all that has happened in the last few years. it's as if i would be foolish to take all that has happened in, and buy it as reality.  no way!  haha, this makes no sense as i re-read what i typed, and thought about a person reading it and trying to sort it out...oh well i know what i mean.

by the way i made this snowman as a 3d model in a computer program, yeah i can do anything.