mortem

Death.

I'm ready for it. I don't mean this in a weak, self-centered, depressed, or even suicidal way. Rather, I mean that I am simply satisfied with my life. Don't worry it's not like I want to die. (creepy)

I have goals and ambitions, things that I want to learn, people I want to meet.......but I feel that I have fulfilled enough already that if the world were to end, or I was to get mauled to death by pigeons, I'd be like "bummer, alright so be it"

But I'm ready for it. I have enough faith in God and the afterlife that it makes me feel unafraid of death. I feel that I have realized the beauty of this world and its inhabitants. I can't even put into words the awe I have for the behavior of mankind. Indeed, people can be ugly too, but I think God wants me to look past that.

The experiences that I have had, the times shared with others, the love felt, the love lost, the family, the friends, the passions, the sadness, the anger, the joy, etc. --- in my 21 years of being, have been wonderful and I regret nothing.

Everyone and everything is so beautiful, and it's that beauty, that magnificence, that makes me feel content. It's so overwhelming that I feel like I'm always missing out on things in this world and at the same time appreciating all of it.