I contemplate God and the teachings of Christ now, more than anytime in my life. I don't think that this was intentional on my part. I've been drawn to His love and the need to reflect on my life and how I have and currently live it. I'm not an old man yet, but I can't help but think about how short human life is on this planet. I find myself asking more and more "Is this how I want to spend this gift?"
I suppose that I have always believed in heaven, and a union of the soul with the creator after our bodily passing. However, now I think about what Christ said about that kingdom. What does it take to get there? He told us. I think deep down, we all have a general idea of what it takes to be united with Him. Most of us are afraid to do those things on this material plane. Give up our luxury? Love those whom we hate? Forgive those who have wronged us? Share what we have worked so hard to earn to strangers? It's easy when the notion of Eternal Life is in the balance. But we are pulled by the security of what we know and observe here in the now.
I seek to be Christ-like. I fail miserably at it, but I am trying. It's hard to ignore what my mind, society, family, and culture tells me that I need. The ideals conflict often, but they also coincide in some surprising ways...but that's another topic.
I feel good when I think about God. I feel moved to infinite gratitude. Sometimes I feel bad when I think about God. I feel that I'm not doing enough. Will He forgive me?
