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I haven't wrote much on this blog this year. Maybe I don't need it as much as I used to. Did I ever need it? Were all of my past writings important for me to release stress? To feel like I told something what was troubling or exciting me? I don't fucking know.

This blog wasn't intended for anyone to read but myself, and when that is the situation I am purely motivated to write for me and myself only. Authors write columns or public blog posts because they know that people read it. They want their thoughts to be seen and may even feel that they owe the public something. They are motivated by the external expectation as well as for themselves. Maybe not even themselves. Beats me. Ask them. Whatever.

findthecenter.blogspot.com means a lot to me. It's a capture of myself and what I was going through and planning at different stages and places in my life....which of course I do not forget, but I like to have this in order to remind myself of who I was, and what I wanted. It's about 9 years old now, and as I get close to a blog being used for a decade, I realize that I want to keep using it for another 9 years.

I'm ready and not ready for what's next. And I think that this is all the better.