*I am going to use the word 'feel' more than once by a bunch.
I've been really good about attending mass lately. It's good because I've been going because I feel like I need it, not because I feel like I have to. I must admit since leaving home, where I went to mass with my family every Sunday because I was supposed to, I have felt this on and off urge to be in the church, to say the prayers, to be around other people of my faith.
Maybe it is because I am on my own that I feel that urge to go. I feel this emptiness...this loneliness sometimes that I think I can only fill by going to mass. It has been years now since that began, but I still feel it. I believe in God with all of my heart, and it may sound stupid to some, but I have faith that He helps me. He doesn't give me successes or failures, but I truly believe that He is present, and He loves me. I guess I'd have to say that He doesn't make me feel as lonely as I would without Him.
Some would explain that I am following some figment, and I have psychologically conditioned myself into feeling that I need something to believe in. But I just don't care. It feels right. And I'm not the only one who believes in Him either, and that's comforting.
