i'm tired of being here

I'm tired of being here, on this hill, where I'm sure to find my last meal. No-one lives to be three hundred years. On this hill, nothing grows except greed. You will stay and finish your work, as long as need be.

I'm so sick of being here. I can't do this anymore from a social standpoint. I work all week with no one within 30 years my age, whether that's being confined to a hot, frustrating cubicle, or hiking by myself all day in the woods. Then I go home to my RV by myself, feed myself, and fight my mind to keep me from thinking about the past and the future. It's so miserably depressing. The weekend comes; okay no work. Still in my RV, alone, reading books and watching old dvds. Every damn weekend I do this shit.

The scenery is beautiful, but it means nothing to me after long, because I can't share it with anyone. I've climbed mountains, seen hidden waterfalls, lakes, canyons, bears, deer, elk, you name it. It means nothing to anyone except me, and it just makes me sad that I'm the only one to see it. I like being a lone on occasion, but as for living day to day, I have a tendency to enjoy being around my crazy species. Go figure, I got my degree in Anthropology!

I don't want to end this ramble on a silly note though, I'm almost angry at this point about my situation. But I can't regret it, it's been somehow good for me. 1 month left to go, it sounded like hardly any time when I thought about it last week, but today, after being here 3 months, it sounds like another one of those 3 months and I want to sleep the entire time by. Oh and by the way the picture is of home; the open plains of north Texas, not Colorado.

Tag

Fair enough, work is boring as hell so why not?

The Rules:you share 8 things that your readers don’t know about you. At the end, you tag 8 other bloggers to keep the fun going. Each blogger must post these rules first.Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves. At the end of the post, a blogger needs to choose eight people to get tagged and list the names.


Fact 1: I go to mass every week
Fact 2: I shave my legs (shut up I have my reasons)
Fact 3: I still like to run everywhere to get to places in my house like a kid
Fact 4: I can't stand people who lie, even if it's in good intentions
Fact 5: Vodka is my favourite liquor
Fact 6: I was the fastest runner in my highschool
Fact 7: I always like numbers to be exactly on a 5 or 0; like music volume or clock time, but set my alarms to weird times like 7:22 or 6:17.
Fact 8: I talk to myself, out loud, all the time, when no one is around

Bomb Track

Rage Against the Machine is playing in New Orleans. I'm so excited I don't really know how to express it. Hell yeah I'm going.

First off, they just might be my favourite rock band. That's subjective though, and my favourite bands are unique and really can't be said to be better than one another because taste changes, as does the mood for listening. But still, Rage is awesome and I love their music. It's awesome to say the word 'is'! Why? Well if you didn't know, they broke up back in 2000 after the MTV music awards had them lose their nomination to Fred Durst. There were some internal conflicts as well, but that was the catalyst I guess you could say.

They band stayed together, save the lead singer Zach de la Rocha who went underground to Mexico or something, and teamed up with former Soundgarden's Chris Cornell to make Audioslave. Which was a cute band. A softer Rage Against the Machine with the lack of political activist identity that made them famous in the first place really.....but I thought they were still a solid band.

Anywho, for whatever reason they are back, not making new music however, just playing their older music at concerts. Here's the thing, they keep adding new concerts to their list, hinting that they are 'getting along'. woohoo! For the past half decade I've always been thinking to myself "damn, I never got to see my favourite band play, I sure wish I had gotten to watch them before they broke up, shucks, darn diggly darn dang."

Now I can, and will. 100 bands are playing in this 3-day event called Voodoo fest. I found 2 other bands that will be playing that I really like, well one band and one DJ: Tiesto (if you don't know who that is, bummer. download Traffic among others) and Smashing Pumpkins, another popular 90s band that broke up and seems to be saying "Hey bro, sorry about 1990-something, I didn't mean to get with your girlfriend and pee on your guitar. We had a good thing goin, lets play again.....because whatever I'm doing now no one gives batshit about." Or so he seemed to say. Good job Billy Corgan.